Last week I heard that my aunt passed away.  The news truly devastated me I felt that the last thread that bound me to my father is now ripped.  I felt so bad for not being able to see her before she passed on.  She was like a mother to me, I spent so many of my days as a child in my aunt’s house, playing with my cousins, going through her stuff treasure hunting, playing soccer in the yard, swimming in the pool screaming and shouting to one another, sleeping in her arms in the evening, playing pirates with her knitting rods, and she never said anything to us.  She was the strongest woman I had seen in my life, she was smart, she was sharp and nothing would pass her attention, she was kind and finally she was a good human being.  She will be missed all of us cried and couldn’t believe that she no longer exists among us.  Where would we go on Fridays when we go for a visit? She would have prepared a feast and every one of her children and her grand children were there and as always children were playing make noises and the adults were laughing and having fun.  Those days are gone now, a lot of memories playing in my mind, memory of my father, my aunts, my grandmother, and my brother whom was loved by her and never found out that he is long gone and her son who passed away a month earlier.  Oh my God, they are all gone, only memories of them remained.  Good memories that bring tears in my eyes and joy in my heart for being so blessed to have a loving family.  Yes I am blessed and I am so ever thankful to God for giving me a loving family that not everyone has had in life.  I always love you, you were one of the kind.  God bless your soul my dearest aunt.

I always had a niche in decoration and creation and I sometimes think I should have pursued a career in art instead of something so solid and real.  To compensate myself I sometimes spend times to decorate my house or to create something.  That of course cost money but it never kept me from doing what I like to do.  Money never mattered to me, it's a mean to an end, as long as you have some small savings for the unknown future events.  Recently I purchased few pieces of furniture which will be delivered this  weekend and it couldn't be more timely for I am having a baby shower in the following weekend for my cousin :-) and of course with the Thanksgiving coming up I sure will have a good looking home to entertain my family and close friends. 

Life is good and I am so ever grateful and humbled by God's kindness and blessings .................

It's always a pleasure to be surrounded by your close friends, laugh, joke, tease and have a great time.  This is what happened and I am totally greateful for being lucky :)

Never liked to be a hermit, always tried to talk the talk and walk the walk.....I can see how happy others feel when I enter the room.....just for being myself and bring happiness and lightness in the room....That's what I was told. What more can I ask??

Yes I am going to a wedding and I am so excited about it.  I am planning to look my best to feel my best and to have a blast with all my friends while my family is sitting next to me.  I just love wedding, it’s always joyful. 

Where are you?

He is no where....He is gone forever in peace.  Today is the third day that he has joined God...

Gold Bless his soul indeed for he was the most honorable man I have ever seen in my life.  I hope his daughters who are suffering now will have a happy life.  I am sure he will be an guardian angle for his soon to be born grand child.....

Why bad things happens to good people????? I asked.  He said because sometimes God loves his creatures so much that he wants them to join him in Heaven............ :((((

I just hope nothing bad happens to anyone's loved ones...Amen

A newlywed couple had only been married for two weeks.

The husband, although very much in love, couldn't wait to go out on the town and party with his old buddies So, he said to his new wife, 'Honey, I'll be right back.'

'Where are you going, coochy cooh?' asked the wife.

'I'm going to the bar, pretty face. I' m going to have a beer.'

The wife said, 'You want a beer, my love?'

She opened the door to the refrigerator and showed him 25 different kinds of beer brands from 12 different countries: Germany, Holland , Japan , India ,etc.

The husband didn't know what to do, and the only thing that he could think of saying was, 'Yes, lolly pop...but at the bar...you know.... they have frozen glasses...'

He didn't get to finish the sentence, because the wife interrupted him by saying,

'You want a frozen glass, puppy face?'

She took a huge beer mug out of the freezer, so frozen that she was getting chills just holding it.

The husband, looking a bit pale, said, 'Yes, tootsie roll, but at the Bar they have those hors d'oeuvres that are really delicious... I won't be long; I'll be right back. I promise. OK?'

You want hors d'oeuvres, poochi pooh?' She opened

the oven and took out 5 dishes of different hors d'oeuvres: chicken wings, pigs in blankets, mushroom caps, pork strips, etc.

'But my sweet honey... At the bar... You know.... there’s swearing, dirty words and all that...'

'You want dirty words, Dickhead? Drink your fucking beer in your Goddamn frozen mug and eat your motherfucking snacks, because you are married now, and you aren't fucking going anywhere! Got it, Asshole?'

..........And, they lived happily ever after.

Now, isn't that a sweet story? LOL

No comments......Just never talk about your work..

I just loved my little niece.  She is so cute and adorable and yes edible.  I sometimes had this urge to bite her chicks.  I had a wonderful time and more so I never knew Virginia is so beautiful.  I always travelled to Maryland and stayed there and visited DC on occasions but this I did stayed in Virginia.

Yes good time fly and before I knew it was time for me to return. 

One of my best qualities is I only go shopping when I know exactly what I want.  With that in mind we went shopping last night and I bought few pieces of furniture, but was disappointed when I was told they won’t be delivered until October.  Oh well, as long as I can have them for Thanksgiving.  Oh my I can’t believe it, days go so fast.  It’s already August and before you know it will be Thanksgiving and Christmas.  I don’t want to grow old so fast but there is nothing I can do to stop time.  I might as well enjoy every second now.  I wished my beloved sister would do the same instead of living in the past so much. I am blabbering again and let my thoughts run along my fingers. 

I better stop.

Have you recently searched you soul?

Found anything unusual?

Have you seen your eyes?

Noticed the reflection of hate and abhorrence?

Do you believe in Heaven and Hell?

Do you believe in God?

Can you peacefully sleep through the night?

With so much blood in your hands?

So many lives that were ended,

So many hopes turned into despair,

So many hearts broken,

So many hands held up to God,

Cursing your soul and wished you hell,

For what they have lost.

Did you peacefully sleep last night?

Do you feel the power of evil running through your soul?

Do you remember the last time he cast his spirit upon you?

Was it when you killed Neda?

Or was it when you hid Sohrab’s body?

Or was it when your soldiers raped and tortured their prey.

When was it?

Tell me, we like to know.

Can you peacefully sleep through the night?

I just read my previous post, lolol.  What was wrong with me.  The only thing I like about writing my feelings is I can see them later and laugh at them.  I guess because I had planned to go to gym and I couldn't ....well plus couple of other things...

Now I am in a different mood. 

"Frame every so called disaster with these words "In five years, will this matter?" someone asked me.  My question was of course not because the older you get the less passionate you become.  But I am not going to lose my passion for life, I like to get things or live my life the way I want once in while....don't you?

Weekends are usually for relaxation, going places, shopping and whatever that's fun.  It seems weekend for me is nothing but constant work.  I was really tired yesterday and to make it worse I realized how my ability to have certain things is very limited.  I've been witnessing others living my simple dreams.  Hence my dreams are not unattainable.  I hate to question my fate and I fear asking God why? I am happy and I am probably one of the luckiest people on this earth, but I can't help it I have to be honest, at least with myself, I am tired of been gracious and happy for others to live my dreams, always congratulating them and thanking God for their luck and all.  No yesterday I was pretty sad, why can't I live my simple dreams? why my simple basic dreams don't come true? How long do I have to keep my faith and pretend that I am happy for others? I can't do it anymore, well....may be not now, not yesterday and not today.  I can feel like that in my privacy no? Ok I know it is really silly to talk like that, but I want to be silly now and I want to nag and complain.  Once in a while it is ok to feel like complaining, and no one hears me because I can't tell people my dreams.  They are so simple that they may pity me and I hate that I am not a pitiful person, I have everything that a normal person might have most importantly my health.  Oh no I am not going to convince myself that I should not complain..No I like to nag now and I want to be sad now and I want to know how long do I have to wait? is this my freaking destiny? like a wheel of bike? going around and around..No it is not..

For the past weeks all I saw was atrocities done by a crowd of thugs and hoodlums.  Beating up, killing or arresting thousands of peaceful young people who wanted to have a taste of Freedom.  The Nedas of Iran are crying outloud to be heard by the world.  What they want is to be respected by the world and to clean their tarnished images.  The images that reflect on television world wide, a huge angry crowd with closed fists, shouting “Death to America”.  They want the world to know those people are the same thugs who kill them in cold blood.  They wanted the entire world to know that the government makes its workers to go out and show their solidarity with the regime or else lose their jobs and end up marked on the government’s black list.  So many ghastly images filled internet sites, and made you wonder what human would do that to another? Even animals don’t kill their own. 

I feel so sad for the people of Iran.  It seems like everything is gone back to normal, normal under fear of retributions and reprisal.  I don’t know if I live to see a change in that government, all I can do is pray and wait.  Religion can not be mixed with politics.  Religious leaders should only be the spiritual leaders.  Throughout the history fanatics were the root of all evil.  Religious leaders used the name of God to carry on their atrocities. 

I can only hope that this movement of “The Human Rights” continues in Iran and in many other countries where their subjects are yearning to taste a drop of freedom.  I hope the blood of the Nedas of this world would not be shed in vain.  Amen

I always loved Michael Jackson and throughout the 80’s danced with his music and so did my son.  Two generation danced to his music.  He is indeed the King of Pop as Elvis was the King of Rock & Roll.

The only thing that is annoying now is the news.  Every single day from early in the afternoon till whatever time it takes all I hear is about him.  Ok I am sorry, I did pay my respect and dues in watching one full evening to see how he died and I cried for him.  But enough is enough, let the man go in dignity, let him rest in peace, why discussing his dependency on drugs or whatever.  Let’s face it he was great, but he made few bad mistakes.  Stop interviewing people who are dying for 15 minutes of fame at any cost.  I saw his nurse on CNN telling that he was begging the doctor to give him sleeping pills.  So what? I am sure so many ordinary people would do the same.  It is really sad that the newscasters are so hung on this story that they forgot there are other important news that people need to know.  It seems like the news about scandals are juicier than the important news that’s happening around the glob as we speak. 

All I know is this “I can’t wait for this news to be over”

Oh yea I also felt bad for Farah Fawcett whose death was overshadowed by MJ’s death and adding to that Carl Malden died at the age of 97 so I think he really shouldn’t complain that the news of his death was only a one liner on CNN. 

It was so strange I saw him in my dream.  He never had a face but this time he did.  He was loving and nice.  He held me tight and I could feel his love under my skin....

 I woke up, felt sad, I miss him so very much....I realized I was reading "The Russina Concubine" before I fell asleep last night.  Well better than reading or listening to the news no?

These days I am so sad that I can't even write.  What is there to write? bunch of thugs beat and kill young peaceful protesters? when will this end? who will help these poor young hopeless people to reach their desire which is to taste a bit of freedom....

Just try to take moment of silence and imagine you didn't have "Feedom" and then again, think of someone whom you loved lost her/his life to taste it and make it happen....

To All the Iranian fighters, who lost their lives or still struggling to reach freedom....

May God Bless you and Protect you All.....

This is far more ridiculous than I thought.  I was cruising the web to find articles about Arabs and Iranian reactions to Obama’s speech in Cairo University.  I stumbled upon this newspaper called Asharq Alawsat, an English newspaper of Dubai I think.  Anyway in one of the columns it said “Paris Hilton look for BFF in the Middle Eastern countries”.  I have to confess and own up to the fact that I never liked this girl and I don’t know why is she such an important figure for the newspapers, other than she inherited Hilton’s money. I can rightly say that she is amongst those lucky SOB that has nothing to offer or show for except her daddy’s money.  Anyway the article said she is having a show (contest) in Dubai.  The result is this: Whoever wins the contest will be her best friend forever “BFF”..OH please, I am throwing up now. Someone please shut her up.